Permanent

It’s a Friday night
I’m trapped to my bed
From the fears of my mind
Convincing myself I’m not right
I always get this feeling
Every now in then
That engulfs me
Makes my heart sink to my stomach.
I just want it to leave me be.
But it always comes back
I always feel sad.
And that makes me feel bad
Because there are thousand of lives
that are worse than mine
But I can’t fix the sad,
So I don’t believe it
I tell myself
There’s no way,
you have no reason to feel this way.
I turn indenial
Block of my emotions.
But Ignoring your heart
Is like saying the storms not gonna come,
The thunders there
You just haven’t seen the rain yet.
You haven’t released the dam.
Just let the flood gates open,
And let the storm pass. Ignoring the pain, is only a temporary solution, to a permanent problem.